Waiting is my worst skill.

I’ve gotten lots of questions lately asking what is going on with the fostering front… and every time I answer, I flail a little bit.

We are waiting. Waiting waiting waiting. And not even just waiting for a kiddo to come be with us - we haven’t even gotten our license yet. Our amazing case specialist came on the 6th and did our inspection and things went so well. In fact, this may not surprise, but we went above and beyond on a lot of things. She was definitely impressed! So then she left and until today we hadn’t heard anything. I spoke with her just a few hours ago, and we both talked about how we are in the waiting period. She has some edits to do on our home study, and then she can send it to us to review, and then she will submit it and start our licensing paperwork. She has a huge job to do for us and for other families, so I do not envy her one bit. Yet I wish it was all just GOING, you know?? This process has taken forever it feels like, and I’m not getting any younger or any more patient. We are looking at maybe another 1-2 months, maybe more. It all depends on the state!

I’ve wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember, so I feel like I’ve been waiting forever - because I honestly have been. And now the room is all finished, and it feels even harder to be waiting for… more waiting?

WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING UGH.

I’m not naive - I knew that this would be a long process, and I knew there would be lots to slug through and to wait for. But lately my shoulders and heart just feel so heavy with the waiting of it all.

I think it’s hard because right now our life and home feel so plug and play — a kiddo could come at any moment and we would be able to house them and love them! We’ve got it all! We are ready to go!

INSERT SMALL CHILD HERE, SAYS THEIR BEDROOM.

But paperwork is a necessary thing in life, I guess, and it all must be done in its own time. So for now, I keep the door shut because it reminds me that I’m still waiting (but won’t be waiting forever!!!), but I sneak in off and on and marvel at how cute everything is, and how sweet of a place it will be for some sweet little nuggets to have sanctuary before they go on their merry way — or before they get to stay forever!

I can wait. I’ve waited this long, haven’t I? I can keep waiting.

But I’m not going to like it. (although I’m not naive in the fact that I can shower, sleep, eat, go somewhere, play, go to bed, watch TV, whenever I want while I wait. So that’s a side bonus)

More for you when I have more to share! :) Thanks for supporting and loving us, and following this journey. We are lucky to have such an awesome family and chosen family.

It’s clear that I need a child. Poor David!

It’s clear that I need a child. Poor David!